LIFT OR DIE

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unnaturallystrong:

humansofnewyork:

"Are you lonely?""It’s been a lifetime of loneliness. I decided early on that I better get used to it. I go to movies by myself. If the movie theater is completely empty, I’m even happier. I learned early on that if I wanted to go to restaurants, I better learn to go by myself. One benefit to being big is that people don’t bother you. I’m shocked that you came up to me. Nobody’s ever done that. When I started to go to therapy, it took me several sessions before I even spoke a word. I’d just sit there and cry. And honestly, you caught me on a tough day. I was sitting here feeling really bad about myself. Because I went to the doctor today, and I was sure that I’d lost weight. But I’d gained some."

Every now and then one of these hits me right in the fucking gut.

unnaturallystrong:

humansofnewyork:

"Are you lonely?"
"It’s been a lifetime of loneliness. I decided early on that I better get used to it. I go to movies by myself. If the movie theater is completely empty, I’m even happier. I learned early on that if I wanted to go to restaurants, I better learn to go by myself. One benefit to being big is that people don’t bother you. I’m shocked that you came up to me. Nobody’s ever done that. When I started to go to therapy, it took me several sessions before I even spoke a word. I’d just sit there and cry. And honestly, you caught me on a tough day. I was sitting here feeling really bad about myself. Because I went to the doctor today, and I was sure that I’d lost weight. But I’d gained some."

Every now and then one of these hits me right in the fucking gut.

(via planetsallalign)

Filed under 😟 want to hug him

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theebuffbaker:

beardedsavage:

There is a murderer on the roller coaster. Oh no, that’s just me struggling to fit my shoulders into the fucking ride because the seats are built for baby men.

What dreams are made of.

I missed your bald head.

theebuffbaker:

beardedsavage:

There is a murderer on the roller coaster. Oh no, that’s just me struggling to fit my shoulders into the fucking ride because the seats are built for baby men.

What dreams are made of.

I missed your bald head.

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does anyone get severe elbow pain from benching?
I had to stop accessory work bc of it after I benched. I know I have knots in my arms, but they are progressively getting worse. it’s just really annoying.

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captainjaymerica:

Don’t tell someone “your life could be worse” when they’re in a bad place. If I get stabbed and you tell me “could be worse, could’ve gotten shot”, I’m still bleeding. Didn’t make me feel much better. Cut it out.

(via twistedtruestory)

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my eating is so strange.
like yes, Ive struggled with bingeing a lot. I can actually admit this now, but I attended some over eaters anonymous meetings. which are kinda cool by the way. and they are offered literally all over. but anyways, I’ve struggled with bingeing. and I’ve struggled with restricting. and sometimes when I am stressed or feel like shit about my body, I binge. but other times, I want to stop eating food altogether.
it just comes up at the weirdest times. like just now I got home from the gym and needed to eat and took a bite of an enchilada and literally felt repulsed by myself. like, I should not be eating this. bc I’ll get fat again.
but then I was like “Annaliesa what the fuck are you thinking a needed meal isn’t going to make you fat” and continued eating it. but the thought still nagged at me.
anyways, this is a weird ramble that I’m definitely going to tag in case this triggers anyone. but I guess my weird disordered eating comes up at the strangest times. it just likes to sneak in when I am most vulnerable. and I would like to tell it to kindly fuck off.

Filed under tw trigger warning

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yessss hott powerlifter guy is at the gym and spotting me. spotting me, spotting me.
at least I can end today on a solid note.
with some beef.
ok, maybe just looking at some beef.

Filed under i am foul

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shitty ass day.
it’s like, go home and drink hard cider and watch Netflix until I rot away
or go bench and give some nasty ass death stares at anyone who looks at me funny at fitness 19. 
I’m gonna go with the latter.

shitty ass day.
it’s like, go home and drink hard cider and watch Netflix until I rot away
or go bench and give some nasty ass death stares at anyone who looks at me funny at fitness 19.
I’m gonna go with the latter.